I’ve been so overwhelmed by the major obligations, as well as the minutiae, of life that I seem frozen in my tracks a good deal of the time.
Now that Rachel is in first-grade, I figured my life would be magically transformed — a good solid 30 hours a week when she is in school that I could devote not only to boost the amount of paying writing work I have, but also to get this mess of a house into shape. I guess it’s not really that bad, but the general clutter of toys, bills, dishes in the sink, laundy heaped in front of the washing machine and stacks of “filing” overwhelm me and keep me from jumping in to what needs to get done.
I know, I could probably do with a dose of the FlyLady. A year ago, we hired a decorator to give us some suggestions on paint colors for the house and re-arranging furniture (D. and I are both helpless in that kind of creative category). When I asked if she could help out on clutter-management, she wryly replied, “Have you tried behavior modification?”
So, I cut back on assignments for the month of November, thinking that I would have a whole month to “get ahead,” especially with the holidays looming and the accompanying chaos. But somehow, I seem to put-off what I should be doing. I think, “Oh, I have plenty of time later this month to do that task,” and then I end up here — the end of the month with a deadline looming tomorrow, stepchildren and significant others on their way for dinner and the ever-present Rachel who already thinks I spend too much time with the laptop.
So, I admit that I need some major adjustment in the procrastination area. I am so motivated at the beginning of each day, and then get bogged down when I think of it all. I can’t seem to separate it in my head or convince myself to just tackle one thing at a time.
I know that if I don’t do something about my”why do today what you can put off until tomorrow” lifestyle, I will be lost.
How do you all manage the chaos of your daily lives without making yourselves crazy?